Guilty Conscience

Today I am feeling guilty of the things that I've done. Is it wrong? I've done a lot of notty thing. Am I a bad girl. Will I go to hell for doing all this? I am distrubed! It's the holiday that makes me to think a lot as there is nothing else to do but the thoughts do have some truth in it. I've flashed to a lot guys, fucked some of them. Am I a slut? Do sluts end up in hell? Oh please some help me. Free me for this thoughts. Its making me restless, worried. OH pls pls pls. I need advice and consultation...It's making me go crazy...oh what shall I do...what shall I do? :(

New adventure...

After you log off. I kept the laptop and remain naked. I went to kitchen and mixed myself a glass of vodka. Not so strong one but just nice. I mix vodka with orange juice. I walked to living n watch tv as I sip the vodka. Then I heard Magen’s car coming. I walked to the door and open the door for him. He was surprised as I as still naked. He asked “waiting for me”. I just smiled and he came in. I asked him “ can I be like this. I feel more comfortable like this” He said sure and started to strip. He then hugged me and kissed me real deep. Playing with my tit and rubbing my whole body. Kissing all over. He then went into his room and brought some CD. Porn CD. He  said “ lets enjoy the whole night”. My wife is not as sporting as you are. You are so beautiful.  Then he open my leg and start to eat me. Inserting tongue inside. He was really good at it. Then we did 69. I sucked until he is real hard again. He CD that he put was playing some couple porn but didn’t pay much attention about it.

After he was hard he turned me doggie and start to lick my ass. And start to doggie me in pussy. He did it slowly rubbing my tit and pulling my hair. I moan but softly. He calling my name as he fuck me. I talked dirty to him to encourage him to fuck harder. I said fuck me Magen. Fuck me as Im a bitch, slut. Do you like it. Do you like to fuck behind ur wife. Do you like to fuck ur wife’s cousin. Do you like to fuck young sluts pussy. He keep saying yes yes yes and fucked harder and harder.Suddenly he stoped and turned me around and started to kiss again. Eating me, biting me. Then he said let’s fuck on dining table. We got up and I lay on the dining, he layed on top of me and fucked for some time like that.

Then we moved to kitchen. Each time he is about to cum he would stop and change location and position. And the finally he cummed as he was fuckind me in the back room, on the bed. There were no light at the neighbours room but the light in our room was on with window n curtain open. He didn’t notice it and I didn’t tell him until he cummed and layed tired on the bed. He got worried n quickly closed the curtain. I asked him to be relaxed. The room was hot so I slept in master bedroom. The baby he placed in baby court. He wanted to fuck again by kissing n rubbing me but he didn’t get hard. We slept.

Suddenly early morning the baby cried for milk. He got up n mixed milk for the baby and put him to sleep. He came to me and started to suck my tit and he fucked me again. Normal style. Before cumming he took off his condom and cummed on my face. He said I could never do this with my wife and stared to lick it clean. Then I washed my face and went to bed again. In the morning, I woke up late. He was till sleeping hugging me. I woke him up saying it’s late.  He rushed to bathroom n quickly took bath as I lay on bed still naked. He quickly throw his towel and jumped on bed wear condom and start to fuck me, rubbing my tits. Quickly he took it out and cummed on my face. Then he asked me to take quick shower as he is late for work. I took my time he standing at the door watching me shower. As I came out of shower he pulled me close n kissed me. He promised to buy me netbook within 3 weeks and asked me to visit often. He said I could ask him anything and it was the best sex he had his whole life and would like to try more things.

Today's dress code

Master " this is what i want u to wear for tomorrow 

traditional baju kurung, the most ssee thru u have

  and wear black bra and gstring inside

  make sure ur bra is push up"

Message from master

Slave,

 

With all our adventures lately, I won't lie.  I am so horny today and really want to fuck you.  If only I know where you stay, I will appear suddenly at your door and used you.  Like you have never been used before. Until you cry from the pain, from my tortures.  Until you beg me to stop.

 

Then you'll really be my obedient slave.  By then, you'll do anything to please me.  You'll offer me your body which I will fully use to satisfy my lust.

 

Your Master.

 

p/s:  I bet after reading this email, your pussy is wet.  You are not allowed to masturbate!

How I like my MASTER to use me...

I hear the door bell. I know it is my master. I am ready for him. I have been waiting for him naked with collar on my neck and a long rope attached with it. I quickly rush to the door not wanting my master to wait long. I open the door with greeting to the master. Once he walked in, I closed the door and kneel down in front of him. Unzipping his pants and pulling out his cock. I start to suck it, suck it slowly, licking the tip and the body. Putting it into my mouth. Taking it all in my mouth, start to suck it. Faster n faster...looking up at him.Smile at him and keep sucking. Once it's hard and stiff, I stand up and give the rope to him. I am happy to see him please with my welcome.

I kneel down, follow his lead to the living. He lead by pulling the rope hard making me to follow him. As you sat down, I crawl nearer and kissed the tip of your cock before sitting down. You ask for a drink, I crawl to the kitchen and get you a glass of juice. As I am coming back with the juice, I see you standing near the grill at the balcony. I crawl near you and pass the juice to you. You took the juice and took a few sip of it.

I see you holding a towel. You ask me to wear the towel and have a walkout at the balcony. I wore the towel which barely covers my ass if i try to pull it up to cover my tit. I walked out  and stood near the railing. I look around and saw some people from other apartments at their balcony too. I knew that you have noticed them earlier. I turn and saw you a the grill looking at the whole thing. You observing to see if I've done the whole thing if real. You want to see yourself how daring I am. I said to myself that I will everything, anything at all that is ordered by you.

You order me to take off my towel and tie it to my hip, making my top part nude. Both my tit clearly visible. I did without questioning. I am getting attention slowly as people start to notice. They start to cheer. I pretend I am enjoying the view the normal way and I don't notice them. After sometime like that, you order me to the the towel completely off and put it at the side of the balcony and stand there totally naked except with the collar and the rope. I did as told. No objection. I am getting more cheering.

You order me to walk back to you slowly. I turn slowly and walk back towards you naked. As I reach you, I see now you are wearing a cap with sun glasses. You hold the string and ask me to get in my four. I followed as told. I remembered doing like this but this time I am crawling. You pull me to the balcony and ask me to suck your cock there. Slowly I get up and start to stroke you and took your cock into my mouth. Sucking you...mmmmmm. You slowly lift my hand and hold my head as you fuck my mouth holding on to my hair. You kept fucking my mouth as you are fucking a pussy, faster and faster. Suddenly you took out your cock and slap it around my face and slap my face a few times. Now you ask me to lean over the railing making my tits to hang out. You move behind making me open up my legs as I am leaning over. You slap my ass few times and start to fuck me. As you fuck me you slap my ass harder and harder. I moan louder and louder. After some time you cum.

You full me back into my apartment where i kneel down and suck your cock clean. I got up and opened the door for you. Before leaving you said I am a very good slave and you left.

Bra n Panties REPLACED with bikini top n bottom

Today I was ordered to wear bikini top n bottom instead of bra n panties. I didn't go out much except for exercising in the morning and discussion at friends house. It does feel nice though. I wore a white shirt and black slack for the discussion. Nothing much worth saying as nothing much happened there except more focus on studies. Nothing like yesterday...

Yesterday my master made me to walk Alex naked like a dog on the balcony of my apartment and take off my towel as 3 guys saw me naked before I walk back in. My mastering is making me to make more daring moves each time, making me wonder what else he have for me...

Adventure at college

I was chatting with Master Vincent just before my lecture and I just remembered that I've to meet my lecturer regarding one of my assignment. I told Master Vincent about it and he commanded me to unbutton my shirt before walking into his room. I was wearing shirt and jeans. I unbuttoned 2 of my button b4 walking into his room. My heart was beating fast. First time taking such a risk. Teasing my own lecturer. I was  sure what would happen. I walked calmly into my lecturers room. I saw him sitting at his desk neat the window. He was in his late 40s. As he is being sited his view was directly on my chest. I am very sure he noticed that my shirt was unbuttoned as I was approaching him. Upon reaching his table, I leaned over, still standing as i asked about my assignments. He was a bit nervous but he never talked anything about my shirt. He tried not to look but he was too tempted to see my cleavage and my bra which was clearly visible as I lean over. After about 10 minutes I said thank you, hold out my hand to him. He gave his hand and we shook. He had a very hard grip. And I left.

Later after my class at about 4.30pm, I came online and chatting with Master Vincent again. I was sitting at one of the empty classroom. Alone. He asked about my adventure in my lecturer's room. I told him all about it. He was impressed and he said he would reward me since it have been long time I had any real fun; no mastubation or sex. He ordered me to unzip my jeans and I started to finger myself. At this time I was sitting at the corner of the classroom and my action wasn't obvious. Then Master Vincent asked me to unbutton 2 of my button and unstrap my bra. I hesitated but he ORDERED me to do so. I did as told. Heart beating fast. Scared if someone would walk in. It's not my house, it's college. After fingering for some time I still haven't cum which made him pissed. He ordered me to stand up and bend over the table and finger my self. I was very scared as any one who would walk in could see what I was doing. No more hidden. Not very safe anymore. I followed. I did as told. I started to finger faster and faster. Heart beating fast. Still not cummed but already very wet. Suddenly I thought I heard someone walking in the corridor. I can be seen through the glass at the door. I quickly put my jeans button and hold my shirt as I rushed to the door. I saw no one. When I told Master Vincent about it he was very angry. He ORDERED me to unbutton all my button and take off my bra and button the bottom 3 of my shirt. I hesitated did as told. I was so scared. Heart pounding extremely fast. I bend over and start to finger again. After about 5 minutes I cum. I cum a lot. WOW! It was really nice cumming after such a long time. I thanked Master. He ordered me to go home without my bra and unbuttoned top 2. I protested but I couldn't do much. So I went home like that covering myself with my bag. Nipple was hard all the time.

Up early

I woke up early today. I slept very early yesterday, at 9pm. I was so tired, assignments, club meetings, revision oh there is so much things to do. I was up early today. Went for jogging. It was very cold outside. I was wearing my track and white tshirt. And also black panties and bra. The coldness made my nipples hard.

For breakfast I bought a pack of nasi lemak with fried egg. Now have to get ready to go to college. Still thinking what to wear for college today...

I love to tease

As ordered by master, when the technician came to my apartment, I was wearing a white long sleeve shirt without any bra and a black short shorts without any panties. I didn't put on my contact, I wore my spec.

First I peeped the door to see who was there when the door bell was rung to be sure who was there and to be safe at the same time. I saw two technician at the door, one younger guy (late 20s) and the other an older guy (late 30s). I took my time as if I was woke up by their bell. Two buttons of my shirt was already unbuttoned.

I opened the door, looking at them and said 'oh I forgot la' as I let them in. I could see they already scanning my body as I opened the door. The looked at each other and then at me as they walked in. They followed me in, I am sure they was scanning more. They asked how I was and have I taken breakfast. I said no I just woke up. I pointed them to the modem and they stared to do their work. I was standing there looking at them. They would look at me often and give a smile at me with some small talk like how long I stying, whom I am staying with etc. I asked them if they like something to drink. I went to kitchen and brought two glasses of juice and hand it over to them. As I came back I have unbuttoned another. They took the glass and kept staring at my boob. I pretend not noticing and kept standing there small talk with them.

The older one is married and have 3 kids while the younger one have just got married recently. They have been working there for some time. As we were chatting, I said it's hot and increase the speed of the fan.The wind blows my shirt open revealing my boob more for their viewing and the were excited and enjoying the view as we chatted. Then I said thank you to them and they with a smile said thank you at me as they left. Wow I really love teasing :)

My orders

lave,

 

I noticed that you don't have class on Saturdays and Sundays......wonder if I'm able to meet you at home every weekend. You were online last night...so I think your internet connection is fixed? If not, then I do recall you telling me that the technicians will come on Saturday.  As I've yet to receive your inventory of wardrobe (list of pics) or any pics of what you have in your wardrobe...I'll have to ask if you have any mens long sleeve shirt with buttons?

 

If you have, I want you to wear that with no bra and just a pair of really short pants..something u would wear to bed (short n tight), something up your thighs....unbutton the top 2 buttons of your shirt...

 

I want the technicians to see you in your "just awake" state......act innocent while seducing them......see their reactions...

 

If they force yourself on you, remember to be in command.....(no sex allowed)

 

I do hope you have learnt enough from me.....

Exercising...my first

I woke up early today, about 6.20am. Did some exercise...haven't been exercising for a very long time. Have to keep fit and healthy. Had roti canai for breakfast. Today I wore black skirt, few inches shorter than knee with red g-string inside, sleeveless pink t-shirt with red bra. Well not sure why I choose to wear this, maybe it's friday, well I just feel like wearing it.

Lunch with friends...with some flashbacks

Today I went to lunch with my friends in a car. Earlier, I was in hot discussion with Master Vincent that he made me so HORNY! and WET! I was in a car with two other guys, Irwan and Rozi. I sat behind. I asked them about our adventure earlier...

"Both of the guys with another guy, Syed and me had some good cum on me session. I teased them by revealing myself  which made them so horny. Master Vincent was the director. I was just following his order from online. I asked them to strip naked, at first the hesitated but later they obeyed me. My heard was pounding fast, seeing three of my friends, my gf's bf naked in front of me at the same time. It seems like I had the power over them which was nice in a way and they obeyed me. When I instruct them to masturbate, they did. They have average size but it was trilling seeing all of them naked at one of the guys apartment. The apartment belongs to one of my close friends bf. The whole session ended with them cumming all over me. I was full of their cum. I've asked them to buy some present for me, a pair of lingerie and they agreed."

They said they enjoyed it very much. I could see the excited on their faces, maybe they thought of the things that happened that day and that made them hard. I squeezed their cock and balls to verify and YES! they were hard. They said they are looking forward for more than what happened. I said, not until I receive the present and it will only happen when I want it to happen and when I say it's going to happen.
I AM IN CONTROL, i say strictly.

We reached the shop and we had some lunch and nothing much happened there. I had chicken rice. The two guys, Irwan and Rozi was sitting next to me at each side while, Nino was sitting in between of Syed and Faizal. Syed did peep me at times but he was careful so that Nino didn't notice. Faizal had crash with Nino after seeing intimate action between Syed and Nino. His eyes was on Nino at times; Not sure if Syed noticed or not but I am sure he was having some wild imagination in his mind. I am sure I was in his wild imagination along with Syed and Nino.

assignments!!!!!

Ooouh I am so tired of assignments and projects. There is a lot to do and the due date is very near. I wish I could finish all this as soon as possible so I can spend some time relaxing, have fun with my friends and I miss my Master Vincent very much. Hardly have time for anyone. Classes are almost every hour...aahhhh what at life!!!

email...How it begins

Slave,

 

How do you feel when I call you that? Do you like it? Do u feel ashamed or proud of it?

 

There are a few things I want you to do......

 

1. Let me know your timetable so I know when to expect you at home or in college

 

2. I'm sure you know wht a blog is.....you are to write to me everyday, like a blog or a diary...stating anything u encounter, feel, do...etc....

 

If you do not follow the instructions above, i will punish you....and believe me, even though I'm not there..I still have my ways to punish you..

 

 

Your master.

At park in college

I am sitting at my college park. Fresh air. Chatting with Vincent. It always excites me when I'm with Vincent. He really able to push my limit. The were a group of guys,  my seniors sitting at the table next to mine. Vincent asked me to tease them a bit. Exhibit my self. So I purposely revealed my pink g-sting out of my jeans to them.

You should have seen their faces. They were very excited. Kept staring at me...well at my pink g. I was excited too. Exposing and teasing at my own college park. It was trilling experience.

I wonder...

Today have been a good day for me. I had a good start; had a good and satisfied sleep. Can't think much of my dreams but I'm sure I had some. I didn't wake up in between at all. Cozy bed.

Today I was at my lecture and I wondered about life and God. Wondered if life is meant to be enjoyed or follow God's law strictly in order to go to heaven? Well I don't care much of that as I am enjoying what I am doing currently. but it keeps me wondering...